Long story short, after several failed attempts to sneak a peek, one night I eventually did get him free of his jeans. I printed this particular story out (at the public library no less - risky risky!) and hid it in my bedroom closet, and I would often read it when I masturbated. It involved a boy building up the courage to 'investigate' his father's nethers while he slept on a semi-regular basis for many years, without his father ever waking up or learning what was going on. One story in particular became my favorite. It wasn't until I had been reading them for several months before I had started taking more of a notice of my own father, and began to appreciate him as a man more than as a Dad. It was more the idea of this Phantom Father, not my own father, that most interested me. I had no real attraction to my Dad prior to reading these stories, and didn't initially feel an attraction to him when I first started reading them. He never remarried and never even dated, or showed any interest in doing so.Īround the age of 11 or 12 I discovered the Nifty Erotic Story Archive and found myself especially fixated on the incest stories.
My parents divorced when I was very young and I was raised by a single father. My Dad has always identified as heterosexual. EDIT: Edited down a bit, hopefully an easier read now.Ī little background: I was gay for as long as I can remember, well before anything started with my Dad.
